Unhappy thoughts

Well.. knowing that the exam is near.. school is re-opening.. this is really disturbing me.. not in terms of stress or whatnot.. in terms of "i have no interest in going to school nor study anymore.." but nonetheless, i still have to FORCE myself to because I MADE THE WRONG CHOICE in getting my self into this burden.. Well most people say.. how i wish if i could turn back time and change the past.. well thats not gonna happen yo.. hahaha.. its like.. now its.. The future is in ur hands, its now or never.. bla bla bla.. well i have to agree though.. k, im not getting anywhere.. what im trying to say is.. if there is a miracle.. 1 miracle to make me pursue this scholar life of mine nw.. 1 miracle could change in it all.. but nvm. i would be too busy realizing it anyway.. haih.. i just hope that next year will be a better yet a stressful year.. stressful not in a form 6 sense.. So like.. whats do point continuing if i have no HEART at all?? I really hope someone could tell that **"PERSON"** whom ive trying to tell.. "I HAVE NO HEART IN FORM 6" stop giving me such courage,confidence.. waste of breath.. please lar.. if u get my hint.. i would be better of working or just studying in colleges by now. but no, i chose form 6.. what to do.. my fault my responsibility.. haihz.. i hate this.. k larr.. morning guys! this is just one of the morning swings..

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